Monday, 26 April 2010

just too young.

my cousins status updates on facebook is just too heartbreaking so i just gotta dig in.

so apparently a friend of theirs was shot by the police coz they suspect the boy to be a part of a robbery gang.the boy is 15. here's a link to the news:

the thing is, whether or not the boy is a robbery gang member, i failed to understand why the police need to shoot them at all. and four shots? the newspaper clip did not say that the boys were attacking the police officers, they just ran away after unfortunately bumping into the patrol car. why is there a need to shoot,why can't they just run after the boys? my understanding is that a police officer should only use their guns when they were being attacked. because if they shoot every time they ran into someone suspicious, wouldn't they be endangering the life of the people around the scene as well?

what i found out by reading my cousins fb pages (sorry for the nosiness girls, this thing caught my attention just way too much), was that the boy sneak out with his parents car [to do what, is uncertain], then he ran into the police and panicked, so he ran. well obviously anyone would, he just did something wrong,your first instinct would definitely tell 'run!'. and even if he's planning to rob someone, again i do not believe that the police needs to shoot them because there is no prove. the parang they claim to find, was after they shot the boy.

ahh i dunno, i am very sensitive when it comes to teenagers. because they are young, they have so much to give, so much potential. they may deviate at times, do stupid things and whatnot, but i believe everyone deserves a chance to at least be guided. so even if this boy is planning to rob someone or whatever, he deserves a chance to be righted. now that chance won't even be there.

no matter how i see it, to me the actions that the police decided to take is wrong. they shouldn't have shot them. if the four police officers that shot the boy did not feel guilty at all for killing the boy, even though they claimed it was accidental, i would be disgusted. what happens just make me question the competencies of our police officers even more.

my heartiest condolences to my cousins, arwah's family, friends, teachers and everyone who cares bout him. al-fatihah.


Saturday, 20 February 2010

sakit lagi.

litres of tears i've cried,
thousands blinking stars i've waited,
love as pure as a child's eyes i've poured,

and still you walk away.

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this.. is written last year,bout F.

F. will always be my number 1 choice. dun ask me why.

i keep on coming back every time i got myself heartbroken, and F, newsflash! i got my heart broken again.. *sigh* *i know, i never learn*

so make sure you stay away from me. haha.

Friday, 12 February 2010

K&K

guys are just ridiculous.

i am ridiculous.

Kenji & Kidae. what exactly do you guys want from me?

my heart.. is not for you to play with.

Tuesday, 26 January 2010

Pizzazz



when i'm bored.,i love to cook. or bake. sesuke hati tanpe mengikut recipe. ngehehe. so this is my pizza, made it with mama tadi. tepi2 die ade sket terbakar lame sgt, but it's good! surprisingly. heee.

another pic..



wish i can cook for my guy. or bake for him. anything he wants. if i shall failed, hangus or whatever,hehe.. then i'll do it again n again til i get it right. ahh love, where in the world are you? my heart misses you..


Sunday, 17 January 2010

just a thought.

felt like i should say something bout it even though the issue is like a week ago nye issue.. hee

i've lived in Sarawak for yearsss, and i've heard Christian friends and strangers using the word Allah multiple countless times.. and i have not much problem with it,though of course i felt a bit weird hearing it. coz they are merely referring to God, in their context, and not from the Islamic concept of God. they have not much hidden agenda there, it;s just the way they are used to.. it's been used for ages..

But, to claim the right to use it legally,... is another story.

why now? why all of a sudden? if it's just in sarawak then i understand, coz like i said before, its been used for ages.. its a norm to them, but for the people outside of Sarawak.. outside Sabah.. i've never heard them referring to their God using the word ALlah before..so why sebok2 now?

to me,the question is not whether it is okay to use it, the question is.. why do you want to use the word, that in Malaysia, had been associated with Islam for years?? why??

owh i would write so much more, but i don't think i'd want to risk being taken by the ISA or whatever.. haha.

and people, burning churches and all is just freaking stupid. Islam never teaches us to practice violence, so why are you doing things that puts Islam to a bad name? our initial fight is to protect our religion, but with these people doing stupid things like that, doesn't that jeopardize the sanctity of Islam itself?

i never want our people to fight with each other like that. glad that it's cooling down lately though.


Friday, 30 October 2009

To a stranger

Dearest stranger,
Come to me in my dreams
Cure this hopeless longing
Feed my curiosity
And i shall fly again.

Dearest stranger,
Cross my path soon
As u did erstwhile
Then take my hands
And be my antidote.

Dearest stranger,
My heart longs for you
So intense, its unbearable
So shower me with your love
And let me be your sunshine


*i suck at this. trying to write again, the last time was when i was still in school. had a crush on my mind for this one.

Thursday, 13 August 2009

F

every word
every moment
every fight
every smile
every laugh

i remember.

at my lowest point
i think of you
at my happiest moment
i remember you

you are like
a disease that can't be cured
stuck in my heart
forever.