Have you heard of Epik High?

I am sure most of you haven't. Korean artists and bands are all the raves now, but they are mainly popular because of their cuteness, and Epik High doesn't emphasize that at all.

Tablo and Mithra Jin and DJ Tukutz's words are reflections of my thoughts, and people similar to us I guess.. they wrote things that are always on our minds but none of us can express in words.. and listening to their brilliant music, their intelligent lyrics.. is a bliss to my ears and my brain.

It is such a shame that they are so relatively underrated, compared to the likes of Super Junior or DBSK [which i happened to like as well. hehe] . As the world becomes more and more ridiculous, its great to know that they are people who thinks the same way, and they are people who loves this group as much as I do.

Epik High, I adore them.

So, i am lost. random rambling.

Wake up. Do things. Work. Eat. Survive. 

This is us. Is it satisfying to do this every day? Is this enough? Its not like we don't know.. but they...

They wake up. They fight. They struggle. They starve. Today, they might have survived. Tomorrow, they may not.

I want to jump into their arms, I want to held them and tell them I'm sorry. Sorry that I am here, living every freaking day with relatively minimal problems, and yet I whined, and do nothing for them. I feel their pain, and yet I sit here and stay motionless. I hear their cries, but I am helpless. 

Why am I here, if I can do nothing for them? Why am I here, if my actions doesn't reach them? Why am I here, if my words doesn't change anything for them? Why am I here? 

I am stagnant, I am helpless, I am lost. 

The no 1 thing I would make sure my children do

..apart from submitting themselves to Allah of course..

I will make sure they learn how to make a decision and think of their life choices at an early age, and feel good about it instead of feeling like it is something forceful.

I never had that. I ran away every time, and my parents were forced to decide for me. The psych degree was my choice, but that was about it. So when I have a child of my own, InsyaALlah.. I'll guide them to it, and hopefully when they are as old as I am right now, they already have a solid idea in their mind of what they want to achieve and who they want to be.

As for me right now.. I am as lost as a 2 year old child. I salute most of my friends who knows what they want, and are already on the way to fulfill their destiny.