We are a part of the problem.

As much as I hate the Zionists, but still, can't help to think that perhaps a part of the reason that this continue to happen is us Muslims ourselves.. We, Muslims in general. Apart from just simply contributing a few dollars, temporarily boycotting McDonalds and Starbucks when an attack happens, just how many of us did actually try to understand the whole situation or even try to think of a solution.. When it is in the news everyone suddenly becomes outspoken, once the news dies.. our world goes back to normal.

For us. Only for us, not for them..

Am speaking, with myself included. Shameful isn't it, if we really do think about it..

In regards to Irshad Manji..

It would be great if we don't have to ban Irshad Manji's book for the sake of 'freedom' la konon, then these people won't have the right to say how we Muslims are all control freaks.. but this time around I agree, we should ban it. (After I buy it and have a read of it myself.Hehe.) 


Thing is, Malaysian Muslims, especially the young and ignorant ones.. are too easily strayed off; never ever underestimate the power of words. She has some points in what she's saying, but still most of it are too ridiculous. You should always question everything you came across, but in terms of religion, your questions should be aimed for you to get a better understanding, not to mock or reform it . 


I haven't actually read her books, but it seems like she's looking for a reformation in Islam, like she wants to change the religion to suit her, instead of the other way round. Do correct me if I am wrong.. 


There are some critical questions that she asks which bothers me a lot..  She has apparently question the validity of some Quranic verses, saying that it is confusing and contradicting, as well as saying that prayer's are ridiculous. But then I only read this in a newspaper clipping, never actually right from the book itself, and therefore it could have been altered. 

I am actually looking forward in getting the book, would help me thinking, and then perhaps challenge her ideologies as well if I do get the chance.. 

Perkasa, seriously. Just shut up.

Seriously, seriously?? Argh you idiots. Stay out of it, it’s just a matter of bad service, it has nothing to do with racial issue. But if you do get involved, it will be. Can’t you see that? Arghh I’m so frustrated. 


I think the main person to blame is the manager. Where was he? How come he was not controlling the situation? If there were not enough chickens, why can’t he inform the customers beforehand?


And as for Perkasa’s comments.. Yes, we should here their side of the story as well. But not through you. Definitely not through you guys. And yes, the staffs are tired. Yes, perhaps they are frustrated too with everyone shouting and being angry at them for the slow service and lack of food. Yes as a human, they have the right to be frustrated and angry as well, it comes naturally. But they are in the service business, they should know that things like being scolded by customers will happen at some point in their working life. And they definitely have absolutely no right to punch and hit a customer just because the customer is complaining about the bad service. That is something that even a 5 year old knows. 
As for the customer, perhaps he could have said it a tiny bit nicer than that, leave out the shouting part at least. But then again, saw the video.. I don’t think I heard him saying any bad words. It was just that he was saying it in a very high pitch voice. Which is quite acceptable since he is angry. And I think it would also be acceptable for the staffs to be annoyed as well, but definitely not up to the point of attacking the customer. Again, it is the manager’s fault for not controlling the situation at all. If I were KFC’s management, the manager would be fired first, no doubt. 


Perkasa, DAP.. you guys should get the hell out of the issue la. Please laa. The victim himself has already make it a point that it has nothing to do with racial issue, it’s just a matter of bad service, so just why do you still feel the need to get involve?? 


To be fair though, perhaps the victim shouldn't have made it public in the first place. But I do understand that perhaps he thinks it would serve as a lesson to the hospitality/service industry in Malaysia.

I can't stand people who highlights the bad in others and highlights the good in what they perceive as the best choice.

Say, in a political setting. Okay fine, the said issue is a politically link issue. I cannot stand it. Both sides, right wing, left wing, their supporters.

Can't you just fight for what is right? Can't you just start actually doing something other than highlighting the other sides weaknesses... and then repeatedly highlighting your own triumphs?

I am so sick of reading them all. So sick.

I've said this a million times, in terms of politicians and leaders, you are all idiots, you should just let high school students lead us all if you are planning to behave this way for the rest of your leadership.

And their supporters: Every side has their weaknesses, you cannot deny that. Stop with the bickering and start uniting and actually doing something about it.. because if you don't and carry on bickering instead, how are you any different from them?

The truth?

I am just too annoyed with someone right now..

We are all entitled to our own opinion. But can you please stop acting like you know everything and your idea of the truth is the truth? No one knows the truth here, there are just toooooooooo many putar belit going on here and there, only God knows whats really going on. 

What annoys me the most is the fact that he is not even Malaysian nor living in Malaysia. well, at least no longer living here. 

I know he cares bout other countries developments as well purely because he is a political science student, and it is only natural for him to do so, but.. I do too! I've been following developments in the middle east as well, but I don't claim I know everything about whats happening there.. I can only rely on what I have access to.. which is mainly articles written by other people, as well as the news. And that to me, cannot be deemed as the truth. You can decide on what you want to believe, you can argue about it, but must you act like your idea of the truth is the purest of truth and force people to believe in it as well? 

The reason am so annoyed is because to me, the way he puts it in words indicates that he has the purest truth and others should believe in it too. If he has no intention of doing so, then I apologized for thinking otherwise, and maybe he should try to rephrase his statements. 

But as for now, I will continue being annoyed. haha..

Negativity is never good.

I am obese, and I am surrounded by pretty cousins.

I hate whiners. I wont whine much. It is my own fault that am fat.

Just saying, it kills me to snap pics happily, go back and look at it again.. only to realize that you are freaking ugly, compared to those around you.

Its no one's fault, just.. I do have an inferiority complex whenever am around my cousins, especially my mother's side. I don't give a damn even if some beauty queen is beside me, my self esteem stays intact,tho maybe it drops a lil bit.. but when its my cousins or friends of my cousins or bf or anyone who has anythg to do wif fam.. it just drops down to zero.

I think perhaps the reason being is my past. Because they know who and how i was in my past. Because being a psychology student, I know its not easy to change a person's first impression about you. And I know what kind of jerk I was back then. And so the main reason for the extreme inferiority whenever they are around is fear.. fear of not being accepted, because I want to be accepted. When its non family, who cares even if they choose to hate me. But rather than trying, I just choose to withdraw. Because its easier that way. *Okay, sila tumbuk saya sekarang, saya memang teruk.*

I am such a lost soul. I dont want to use my obesity as a demotivation, but thats exactly what's happening. *Sekali lagi, anda dibenarkan menumbuk dan menyepak saya sekarang.*

My biggest regret.

I am finally done with my degree. And now I am somehow lost. no, wait, I've always been lost. Lost and having no specific direction whatsoever at all. hmph. but now am even more lost. haha. okay2, too much pembebelan x berfaedah.

Anywayyy.. my results are bad. seriously, honestly. it's bad. and the worst thing of all is that, realizing why I didn't score for my papers only after I'm done with them all doesn't help much. I regretted every second of it. I have always been interested in Psychology. When i entered IIUM Matric i was still passionate bout it. Then I entered the main campus, was introduced to a boy, and I let him preoccupy my mind soooo much that nothing else sticks in there anymore. And everything changes. And i let it go on for 3 years. Stoooooooopid~~~~

*Just for the record, in case you read this F, am not blaming you, it is entirely my own mistake.MY BIG MISTAKE.*

They told me about it. in matric. dun get involved with a boy, especially international students, you'll get drifted away from ur studies. and at that time i was like.. 'owhh yea I'll keep that in mind,definitely'. masuk2 main campus, I did the exact opposite.

Every class i go to for the past 4 years except in my final and final short semester there, I entered the class and force myself to study just so that i won't fail. I never really listen. I never got myself engaged in what was being taught. And dammit I can't possibly describe how I hate myself now for that. I know i have the brain, but i never had the will. And you know where there is no will, nothing will be achieved.

And I wonder, now that the will is back, is it too late?

just too young.

my cousins status updates on facebook is just too heartbreaking so i just gotta dig in.

so apparently a friend of theirs was shot by the police coz they suspect the boy to be a part of a robbery gang.the boy is 15. here's a link to the news:

http://www.bernama.com/bernama/v5/newsgeneral.php?id=493544

the thing is, whether or not the boy is a robbery gang member, i failed to understand why the police need to shoot them at all. and four shots? the newspaper clip did not say that the boys were attacking the police officers, they just ran away after unfortunately bumping into the patrol car. why is there a need to shoot,why can't they just run after the boys? my understanding is that a police officer should only use their guns when they were being attacked. because if they shoot every time they ran into someone suspicious, wouldn't they be endangering the life of the people around the scene as well?

what i found out by reading my cousins fb pages (sorry for the nosiness girls, this thing caught my attention just way too much), was that the boy sneak out with his parents car [to do what, is uncertain], then he ran into the police and panicked, so he ran. well obviously anyone would, he just did something wrong,your first instinct would definitely tell 'run!'. and even if he's planning to rob someone, again i do not believe that the police needs to shoot them because there is no prove. the parang they claim to find, was after they shot the boy.

ahh i dunno, i am very sensitive when it comes to teenagers. because they are young, they have so much to give, so much potential. they may deviate at times, do stupid things and whatnot, but i believe everyone deserves a chance to at least be guided. so even if this boy is planning to rob someone or whatever, he deserves a chance to be righted. now that chance won't even be there.

no matter how i see it, to me the actions that the police decided to take is wrong. they shouldn't have shot them. if the four police officers that shot the boy did not feel guilty at all for killing the boy, even though they claimed it was accidental, i would be disgusted. what happens just make me question the competencies of our police officers even more.

my heartiest condolences to my cousins, arwah's family, friends, teachers and everyone who cares bout him. al-fatihah.

Pointless Cruelty.

i am currently working in a learning centre [as they called it..tho i still think its a tuition centre anyway.. what big difference is the two anyway?? but they'll get mad if you say its a tuition centre.so i respect my employer's opinion. it is a learning centre.]

and i have always been fascinated at how the parents of the kids here are just extremely cruel. okay, not extremely cruel, but too pressuring, they have such high expectations of their children.

its school holidays, and yes, i do agree even though it is, they still need to do their revision. but these parents.. one of my students said they have to go to tuition every freaking day, even though its school holidays.. and then they had to come to this so call learning centre am teaching in.

okay perhaps that is still not so bad.

but even during normal school days.. some of these kids had told me that they're going to 3 different learning related things in one day. every single freaking day. tuition, the learning centre am working in, piano lesson and bla bla bla...

perhaps this is normal to other people, but it is so not normal to me. my parents does sent me to a tuition centre, but not 2 of them at once [learning centre=tuition centre, the same,according to me]. i agree wif the extra piano/art/singing/ballet or wateva lesson you wanna send your children to coz it does gives them an advantage later, an extra skill they can sell to their future employers as well as the opportunity for them to develop their soft skills. but 2 tuitions at once? wtf??

the thing is.. its bad enough that they had to go to school half a day and then to curriculum activities during the evening.. then they had to go the learning centre, and then at night they'll have to go to tuition.. and God knows where they fit in the ballet or piano or wateva lesson..

these kids clearly have no life,man. no life at all.

i don't think i would want to torture my kid like that. i'll probably just sent them to a tuition centre and ballet/art/piano lesson. and Qur'an reading lessons,of course.

but never 2 tuition at once. why on earth would they need 2 at once??